July 09, 2004

Lack of Green Thumb

So, K and her family have gone.

My heart has boarded a plane with her. I didn't think I would cry, but alas, the tears came like a sudden rain. It was cathartic and depressing at the same time.

For one week, I wasn't actually in Utah. I was home, in a different house, but as long as I didn't look outside, it was the midwest and I was with someone who knows me, who I know, and the laughter was healing.

We were driving up the mountain and chatting away, and I looked over at her once when she laughed. I had forgotten how pretty she was; how her humor is so physical and hysterical; how her eyes light up when she talks.

I am not blooming too well. I think this transplant has damaged my roots.

Posted by Rae at July 9, 2004 03:02 PM

:( [HUGS]

Posted by: Ith at July 9, 2004 04:19 PM

ohhh, puuuuh

Posted by: Kris at July 9, 2004 04:26 PM

I know what is to be uprooted... But I am thankful for the fact that my uprooting, to say so, was tangible proof of the providence, care and love of our Lord.

If this serves as consolation, remember what C.S. Lewis once said, "Meanwhile the cross comes before the crown and tomorrow is a Monday morning." We are nothing but pilgrims and sojourners, walking and toiling towards our real Homeland, and stumbling along the way more than we would like to.

May you get traveling mercies aplenty in your journey, ma'am :)

Posted by: Eduardo at July 9, 2004 04:30 PM

Sometimes uprooting is good.

At least in my life it has been. All the BEST things of my life have happened (or will happen) here in the desert.

Posted by: Jeremy at July 9, 2004 05:06 PM

Good word, Jeremy. Desert. I sometimes feel like the whining Hebrews in the desert: Saved from my destruction and not thankful for it. I sometimes joke that I just want to learn whatever lesson God has for me so I can go home....

Posted by: Rae at July 9, 2004 05:17 PM

Eduardo- traveling mercies- thanks, Seņor :)

(Makes me want to re-read Anne Lamott-she always makes me laugh)

Posted by: Rae at July 9, 2004 05:19 PM

Do you and your precious sister (is that K's relationship to you?) i-mail? I do, daily, with my own sister, and it is balm for the soul.

Posted by: Sissy Willis at July 11, 2004 06:39 PM

ahhh.... We are more than sisters, sisters don't get to choose each other, and we did. I miss you my friend.

Posted by: K at July 18, 2004 02:31 PM
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